The other night K said that sometimes he thought I was "lost in the blogosphere."
He didn't mean anything by it other than
"What are you doing on the internet when we could be gettin' nekkid, woman!" as commentary on how much time I spend reading blogs.
I've been thinking a lot about that what he said.
Am I lost in the blogosphere?
The question has me thinking about why I am so sucked in.
The first thing that comes to mind is that I am amazed by the community of it all.
I have "met" some fascinating, funny, honest, raw, smart, powerful, creative, hilarious, bold women and men through this weird on-line Mom-and-Dad-or-Not-O-Sphere.
There are some that I wake up and go to sleep worrying about, there are some who's every word I hang on and there are some that make me laugh at the simplest things.
I imagine meeting virtual friends in person and I wonder if it would feel like we had known each other for a long time.
Alternatively, I worry that the connection I feel with "virtual" friends would, in "real life" feel more like too much intimacy achieved too quickly so that everything would be awkward...
Are we all just having a giant one night stand, going ALL THE WAY with each other before we've been properly introduced?
Would we like each other in real life and does that even matter?
I know more about many fellow bloggers than I do about my neighbors -- and I have great neighbors.
Should I be putting more time and energy into relationships with real live people?
Even though I would be a stranger in person, there are some bloggers whose personal space I believe I would simply not be able to respect if I met them.
I would be COMPELLED to get all up in their business with overly aggressive hugs, sloppy dog-lick smooches and all-the-way-up-to-the-nostrils loving.
I have found a ton of support and validation around parenting and motherhood in this forum.
Am I lost?
I don't know. I don't know.